I punched the air in affirmation when I first read the term “organic blogging“. The idea seemed so apt for where I was heading, which was a path I was treading not so much by choice, but moreso out of necessity.
Eight months on and I’m not punching the air with as much gusto. I still believe in the premise and concept but it’s not leaving me fulfilled.
“Fulfilled” is crafting posts and ideas for my blog, both content and the actual creation process (I’m a bit of a geek that way). “Fulfilled” is reading other blogs and being inspired and challenged by what I’ve read. “Fulfilled” is engaging with other bloggers on their blogs. “Fulfilled” is keeping up with my favourite and new blogs via Facebook, Twitter or my RSS Reader. “Fulfilled” is using social media to be part of conversations and sharing in ideas. “Fulfilled” is being enriched by inspiring post and quotes. “Fulfilled” is admiring beautiful images. “Fulfilled” is having a chuckle at an amusing post or image, something I could always do with more of.
Because I’ve little spare time between family commitments and working four days a week, I cannot do what I feel I need to do to be “fulfilled” as a blogger. Even today, I announced to my husband, “I’m not really a blogger, I just have a blog.” Well, that’s how I feel at the moment.
I still believe what I wrote when I said I need to blog organically and to be more “measured and purposeful” in what I do here. So, what’s the disconnect?
The bottom line is that I am not fulfilling one of the core aims I had for starting my blog in the first place; to be part of a community. I can’t be part of it very well if I’m not actively and regularly engaged. I feel a little like a snail watching the colony of ants zoom by in a busy blur, whilst I inch along solo.
See, the thing is, to be in the thick of it all, I still believe a blogger has to be quite active. That means blogging regularly and consistently and responding to commenters. That means interacting via comments, reading other blogs, and social media. Even things like the Facebook algorithm force you to “get with the program” otherwise you fall off people’s radars. But being this active takes time, and lots of it. Some weeks last year I know I spent up to 30 hours a week on blogging and social media. That was just not sustainable. Blogging is not my full-time job.
I know I can’t really change a lot in this current season of my life. The only thing I can change is my expectations. My high jump bar is set at 1 metre and I’m barely clearing it. I think I need to accept this is all I can give for now and lower the bar. I probably need to let go of that yearning for regular community engagement…..for now. I suppose it’s a little like learning to let go of a friendship that’s evolving, something I wrote about in my last post.
I’m not sure I’m going to find my peace with this, but I’ve got to try because feeling unfulfilled is very dissatisfying and unsettling.
Are you happy with how you “do” blogging and social media? How much time do you spend on these activities? Dare I ask, how do you think my blog is doing?
P.S: After finishing this post, I found some interesting points and comments from the post How’s your blogging time management? by Styling You with Nikki Parkinson. You might find this post helpful if you found my topic of interest.
I’m linking with Jess from Diary of a SAHM for IBOT.