McCauley Culkin fans, you’ve come to the wrong place.
Today, I’m home alone. Both girls are in childcare, and I’ve got the whole day to catch up on all the things I’ve not had the chance to get to for umpteen months. (Okay, let’s be more realistic…..try to at least do one thing I’ve been procrastinating).
As mothers, we so often lament the loss of time for ourselves. I’m not begrudging this chance to be “child-free” for today. Most mothers long for it. Most mothers need it from time to time. But somehow it feels a little lonely here. The fact is, there are two little people running around in the world obliviously pulling on my invisible heartstrings. I think Elizabeth Stone understood it well, when she said:
“Making the decision to have a child is momentous.
It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”
I’m pretty sure once I start work I’ll be far too distracted by the mundane, routine, humdrum and office politics, to probably notice these heart tugs too intensely or too frequently.
But for today, they’re pulling hard.
Then again maybe it’s the PMT talking. Or is that PMS?
Run, frosting, run!
I’m linking with Jess from Diary of a SAHM for IBOT.